I GIVE YOU ME

~A Psalms of Vince 

In Disguise You show yourself to me,

In different scenarios, circumstances and people;

You don’t fail to reveal yourself or your presence.

Today here I am, unaware of where I am,

Where I’m headed or what I should do,

But With Your consult somehow, I know how,

I pour out myself and give You me;

I give you me to have and to do anything You will.

Your peace calms me and ever raging storm in my life,

Your breath comforts me, pushing me to another level.

Who am I that you don’t get tired of?

I nag, annoy and even sometime fail to listen to you,

But still, You haven’t let me go.

I’m amazed by the Love You’ve shown towards me,

An undesirable being, yet priceless in Your sight.

A stubborn brat but a defender of Your Kingdom

That is why I give You me, to rule and to reign over;

As a living sacrifice, I offer myself to You,

To accept and behold, to lead and direct,

In Your humble, righteous, simple, but seemingly hard ways.

I commit myself to You and pray for Your guidance!

I don’t know what my Identity is,

Unless I know You, Oh Divine creator of this life.

You say that I’m only a passer-by of this earth,

I really don’t know what to make of it; if not to live a full life.

So I can fully attest to what you created and said was all good!

This is why I give You the whole of me,

Because only You, know me more than I know myself.

With You I do all things by Your daily Strengthening!

I give You me to have; I give you the whole of me;

To lead, guide, cleanse, forgive, love and embrace,

Take me, hold me and love me more

And never let me go, even though You’ve never.

Amen

A SMILE

Over and over it comes again, A strong feeling that can’t be explained,

A heart filled with mixed reactions, where am I to pour them out?

There’s a lot to talk about, but no one to talk to.

Not even a single minute, passes with a relief but full of memories,

Memories that you really wish you can lock them up and never get to remember.

All the “I wish I knew” moments, striking you with their rancorous force,

And all you can do is fake a smile, saying you are fine but deep inside you cry.

Whoever said that a smile can hide a thousand and one thing was damn right,

He or she knew exactly what he or she meant.

  

A “smile” is what I can afford to have at this moment,

Deep silence and withdrawal being my close mates,

With awaken conscience of deep thoughts.

A smile is all I have been left with, the good gift of nature and pretence… A SMILE!

TEARS ON MY MIRROR

The pain growing bit by bit, the bright light slowly fading away.
loosing the grip of self definition and straight to people's definition and
expectations.

Life offering opportunities and choices right in front of you,
but held back by conscience's voice of  "People are watching."
Not allowed to be free and express oneself in total freedom.
I ask, what's the sweetness of life if one lives in fear, subjection and regrets?

I hear a grieving voice from a far, a voice that is inflamed and is crying
to be released from the bondage of intimidation and rejection.
Every time I look on the mirror, I don't know who I see.
Not because I don't want to, but because of how I'm forced to live and see things.

There in front of me, is a strange thing,
I see some small, sour and dry drops of tears,
gently falling down from my mirror. The unseen tears
that can only be seen through reflections.
That's when I realize, there's a lot that needs to be mended
to stop my mirror from shedding tears.

THE GREAT FEELING OF BEING ME

It’s me that I really want to be with,

It’s me that I have to support, understand and even argue with,

to settle on a certain decision or a choice.

It’s me that I LOVE most and would like to spend my entire life with.

In my strength, weaknesses, success, differences, and commonness,

You are always there to advise and encourage me. I can’t fight it

So please let me just say it……

DON’T I JUST LOVE ME??

I don’t want to be a reflection of someone else rather than me,

I may look up to great inspiring personalities but I’m also determined

To work my way to their levels.

They probably worked their way there too, but by being themselves,

 loving themselves and more so, believing in themselves.

So who am I, who are you not to do the same?

I want to have a reputation of my own, that will be unique

and only identified by me.

I want to achieve more and give credit to ME.

Don’t call me SELFISH cause I LOVE ME,

Believe it or not, I’m doing this to build the capacity

For LOVING YOU MORE just like me. For even the BIBLE itself

says, LOVE your NEIGHBOR as you LOVE YOURSELF.

How can I be able to LOVE you more better, if I don’t LOVE myself FIRST?

Think of how this WORLD could be, if only you LOVED everyone just like YOURSELF,

Get the picture? Good start to reveal to others your love by LOVING yourself first.

Just thinking aloud…… as I listen to Alain’s YOU ARE ME!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VBGTNw5iKns

LEFT WITH THE UNFORGETTABLE

This is a dedication to all the Widows, widowers and orphans that

still remember their loved ones who passed away.

Hope it speaks out your thoughts in some ways.

It pains me to remember how I got to meet

and know you more over the time we had.

All the sour and sweet memories, tears and smiles

can’t fade in my mind. My soul gets elated to the

memories of you that sprout out in a conversation with our children.

You made our lives better than we could ask for.

The gift you have left me with is all that I could have wished for,

These children are a powerful gift and product of something we shared and weren’t

afraid of. Something so strong that connected us beyond a mere relationship.

 It has been a journey to both me and the children to cope with your absence

in our lives with the ever lingering thought that you won’t be with us forever.

It hasn’t been easy but with God’s favor and His Faithfulness, we are good

and moving on well.

Since you are gone, I do my best in making sure that our children are

Well taken care of and that they are brought up in best ways. I thank you

For the support and love that you gave for the“little” time you were with us.

As much as it is hard to admit that I sometime wish you were here with me,

as we watch our kids play, I can only remember your deep/soft voice

In my mind, saying…”look how big and fast these kids are growing”

What I realize is that all I can do is just cohere unto the sweet memories you left.

The words of encouragement and assuring that everything will be okay,

are what keep me strong and encouraged in my daily life.

How I wish there was a better way to keep in touch even after serving a life in this earth.

Until my end of day on this earth, just know that I/we still love you and will always remember

you in our hearts.

Just like the wind, we can’t see it but certainly we can feel it,

The same way applies in our lives.

We can’t see you but we can feel your LOVE and PRESENCE in our hearts…

WE MISS YOU!!!